I don't have the princess type of childhood so while growing up or should I say mostly my high school life I made bad decisions in my life, but it doesn't mean I am a bad person. These decisions includes SMOKING.
So started smoking when I was 14 years old because I am not that expressive of myself back then but now I seldom smoke because I know now how to handle my problems and I can really express myself now. I can really tell the world if I am happy, sad, pissed or whatesoever.
Back then and still I find it an escape when I really don't know what to do anymore. But listen now, I am not a chain smoker! I smoke yes, but not every hour or every day, I rarely smoke now unlike before every after school I smoke with my friends and every TGIF nights I smoke a lot!
I am not really proud of my escape goat when I have problems but I am sure I am not the only one who did this.
Do I regret it? Yes and No. Yes because my lungs became weaker, my asthma was triggered again when I was 14 that caused me to be hospitalized for almost two weeks. No because I honestly felt relieved when I smoke.
Will I continue smoking? I hope not, knowing that I have an awesome bestfriend and boyfriend to run to when I have problems. And my body doesn't long for the presence of a cigarette.
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